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May. 6th, 2007 @ 10:18 am (no subject)
So I'm going to see Jamie in 6 days (May 12th) and I'm very excited but also bummed because he had so much to do this week because he's in Florida right now for field training or something and he forgot to take leave for when I'm visiting. So now I'll be stuck in the hotel all day doing nothing...awesome. Why do I have the worst luck when it comes to travelling? I really wish I knew.
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Mar. 17th, 2007 @ 02:55 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: lovedin love
Current Music: TV
So life is going really well right now and I love that. Finally everything that I've ever wanted is happening. Jamie and I are together, after waiting 6 and a half years. I love him with all my heart and he loves me too...finally haha. I'm just really happy, but I'm sad that I hurt Steve in the process. That definitely sucks, but I have to follow my heart so I can be happy. Jamie and I even are thinking about living together when he gets home. Sure that's like 2 years away but it's worth it. He's worth every day and year that I've waited for him and I'm so happy. I'm happy that he's happy too. I was afraid he might be really scared now and doubting it but he hasn't been, he says I love you to me and stuff like that. He said that since we're together he wants it to be everyday, I mean that's the sweetest thing ever. And we were talking about how we'd live in NH and he'd be going back to school and I'd be working and we could have breakfast in the morning together and eat together at dinner and I don't know it just seems perfect. It was totally worth the wait. I told him I wanted to go on a cruise too and we might do that in the winter. That would be awesome. I would love to spend a romantic few days with him on a cruise. I love life right now and I'm not going to do anything to screw it up that's for sure. I kind of feel bad though because I keep thinking about getting engaged. I think it's because everyone else around me is getting engaged right now...Sue and then Michelle and Deb are pretty close to that. I just want to know that I'm going to marry him eventually because I do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I'm just afraid that if I try to talk to him about that it'll scare him. I don't know...I guess I'll just have to keep waiting. As long as we're together haha...that's all I really care about. Getting engaged is just a bonus haha. Boy do I love him...more than anything. It's good to be happy :o)
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Feb. 25th, 2007 @ 09:37 pm (no subject)
Current Location: My dorm room...
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: the Oscars
You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.
You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.
While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.
You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!
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Feb. 20th, 2007 @ 11:32 pm (no subject)
Current Location: mi casa en Boston
Current Mood: tiredstanca
Current Music: niente





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Simone Deveaux

You scored 70 Idealism, 45 Nonconformity, 8 Nerdiness

You think you can paint the future. Fine, paint one without me.

Congratulations, you're Simone Deveaux! You are a loving, dedicated person with a variety of creative interests. You may however, fall in love a little too easily.

Your best quality: You are a romantic
Your worst quality: You are a romantic












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Feb. 3rd, 2007 @ 05:00 pm (no subject)
Current Location: My dorm room...
Current Mood: lonelylost
Current Music: "Over" by Lindsay Lohan
So I feel like he's pulling away from me again...I don't know what to do or what I'm even feeling right now. I was getting over him, slowly, but I was but not anymore. This is so difficult. I just want everything to go smoothly and the way I want it, obviosuly because who doesn't want it that way. It's not happening that way though and I'm having a hard time. I've been so busy lately and I don't even have time to think anymore. I don't know what to do or what's going to happen and I don't know how to deal...
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Jan. 25th, 2007 @ 04:56 pm (no subject)
Current Location: My dorm room...
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: "Suddenly I See" by KT Tunstall
How much are you worth?

Not bad...haha
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Jan. 15th, 2007 @ 11:30 pm I'm such a loser! haha
Current Location: 111
Current Mood: lonelylonely
Current Music: TV
I am such a loser! So I'm back in Boston right now and doing nothing! I feel so lame! I got here around 3 and unpacked, which took forever. Then I just sat around and talked to Jamie on the phone for like an hour and started watching TV, which is what I'm still doing now. There are people out in the hall talking and socializing and talking about shot glasses and I'm so jealous. I don't have any friends on campus anymore so I don't have anything to do. I'm such a loser. Alaina please come back to school so I have someone to hang out. By the way, I already put down Heroes @ Alaina's on my white board calendar haha so you're stuck with me for that. You best be getting the Heroes drinking game ready too. Anyways...I'm going back to doing nothing.

Ciao
~Lonesome, Loser Nicole
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Jan. 3rd, 2007 @ 03:54 am Ooh the possibilites...
Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: "The Good Kind" by The Wreckers
So I think things are going to be ok. I've been having a hard time accepting that Jamie has a girl in Texas now and that he's not in love with me...he loves me but not in the way I want him to. I think I'm finally accepting it and it hasn't been easy, but he does help. He told me the other night that if Christina (that's the girl in Texas) tried to stop him from talking to me, he'd pick me over her, which is really helpful. I think that might have been an underlying fear that I had...but I didn't realize it before. So things are looking up I think.

New Year's Eve was awesome...best one ever I think. I went into Boston and stayed at Mo and Kristin's and I had a great time. I hadn't seen them since May so it was really good to see them. It was funny because my first kiss of the new year was Dave...and this is funny because I've made out with him before. I met him freshman year at the guys' apartment and we made out then too...we actually got sprayed with a fire extinguisher (not a particularly enjoyable experience haha), but I didn't even know he was going to be there and when Mo told me he was coming I reminded her of that and she laughed. But anyways...we made out and stuff and it was a good night. It was really good to see everyone...Sars was too funny when he saw me. He asked me where I'd been, so I told him Italy, and he was like what?! haha It's nice to know they noticed I was gone haha, didn't think they would. It's good to be home.

So Deb is making things a lot better too haha. She's going to try setting me up with this guy she knows...and from his myspace he's cute and he seems nice and he has a lot of movies. Deb even said he alphabetizes them haha so it could be good. I guess we'll see when she gets back from South Carolina. I'm going to be optimistic about it...and if it doesn't work out then it doesn't, at least I tried. So many people think that Jamie holds me back and he really doesn't...I just hadn't found anyone, and no one had found me...but now that I'm trying, maybe people will see that he hasn't held me back. Sure I kept hoping things would work out between him and me but they're obviously not now...maybe they could later on in life, but right now it's not working so I need to move on. I really do hate the thought that later on I'll be over him and he'll want to be with me and it'll be too late for him, but then again I just remind myself that I watch too many movies and that's not going to be the case at all haha. It's a nice thought that he'd want me one day...but it's more a dream than anything. I know that we'll always be great friends and we'll be there for each other no matter what...and I think that's more important to me than the thought of being with him. I'm just now realizing this and it's a good thing.

~Nicole
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Dec. 9th, 2006 @ 05:17 pm (no subject)
Current Location: Secchia Lab
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: "Merry Christmas" by Christina Aguilera
Your Birthdate: April 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.
You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.


Well so far that's wrong, I think...all depends on Jamie. Anyways, haha not much going on here. I'm just procrastinating doing work for my finals, and seeing as how I'm practically failing my history class right now, I really shouldn't be doing this but I just can't focus. I blame it on boys. They suck! So I kind of met this one guy when I was in Prague (weird to say that), but we made out and whatever one night and then I've been trying to hang out with him since we got back...not because I want a relationship, but because I had fun making out with him, the end. Anyways, apparently he's a little bit of a player, because I went on the pub crawl Friday night, as did he, but he was all over some other girl in my program. No offense to her, and not to be conceited, but I looked way hotter. Hell I was wearing lingerie for a shirt!! She just had on sneakers and a long sleeve shirt, boring. Anyways, at least she made a fool out of herself haha becuase she got far too drunk and whatever. Made me feel better. So he's here at school right now, and as much as he's dumb for doing what he did friday, I still want to make out with him haha which is lame, but whatever...I haven't done anything with anyone since I saw Jamie in August and he's got his girl in Texas who he's making out with still, even though he said he wasn't going to, but whatever. So ya, boys are stupid, and I still want to make out with them...but in Will's case, it's just to use him haha, whatever, in this case it's use or be used...

See everyone in 8 days...holy crap!
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Nov. 19th, 2006 @ 07:35 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: "Toxic" by Britney Spears
RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 12 weird things/habits about themselves. People who get tagged will write a blog of 12 weird habits/things they have and should state this rule clearly. At the end choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1.) I walk with my hands in fists and constantly crack my knuckles when I'm really mad.

2.) When I was younger (junior high), I was happier when I got bad grades because that way I got more attention from parents, because my brother always got the attention since he did bad in school.

3.) I am really good at remembering things with numbers.

4.) I constantly correct people about how they talk and grammar. I don't even know why.

5.) I also drink so I can tell people things, I get really nervous if I'm sober.

6.) When I drive anywhere I always have my legs facing a certain way. It usually depends on if I like the person I'm sitting near, if I don't, my legs face away from them.

7.) I have to have chapstick with me at all times. If I don't my lips instantly become chapped just because I don't have chapstick with me.

8.) I love cooking and I don't like when people try to help because I'm afraid they might mess something up. It's a control issue.

9.) I have loved the same person for the past 6 years on and off and I don't know if I'll ever get over him.

10.) The smell of red wine makes me nauseous.

11.) I have a quota for trying new foods every year because I'm so picky.

12.) I don't think I'll ever understand why people can't be good drivers. It drives me insane, hence why I have such horrible road rage.

Tag:
Kayla
Deb
Amanda
Sue
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